4 weeks & 3 days since surgery:-(

Hello everyone. ****Before I start on this update let me first say this. Despite the difficulties I may be facing everyone is different. My experience may be different from yours and the next. Please don't let anything I say discourage you from getting this sugery if you feel this is something you really want to do. My only advice to you is RESEARCH RESEARCH RESEARCH!!! Even then you don't know what may happen until you go through it.*** Wednesday of last week I went to the doctor and received an xray and didn't receive as good of news as I expected. The bone in my brachy toe shifted over from where it should be and I am going to have to get a 2nd surgery. Out of all my research I haven't heard of this happening so of course in my mind I have a million questions, firstly WHY ME?? I've tried my best to be careful and called myself doing everything right so it makes me wonder if this surgery was perforemed correctly to begin with.I am feeling very unconfident right about the entire situation and at moments I cannot stop crying. Of course going into this I knew things didn't always go as expected but with so many success stories I just couldn't help but go for it.At this point I am so confused and really don't know if I should go to get a second opinion which I doubt another doctor would want to see me with all I have going on performed by someone else. I metioned that my doc performed the one step surgey and placed a fixator on as well. I never heard of a doc doing that in my research and my doc said it's surgeons choice. Finally yesterday while researching I found that some surgeons who do the one step method do use the fixator as well for support and to keep the bone steady. Obviously it didn't keep it steady enough. Right now I'm just kind of nervous and scared because I really don't know what to expect next. Will everything be ok after the second surgery? Will I have to endure as much pain as I did the first time? Will I come out of this with a corrected toe or a toe at all?? I know I may be thinking too hard and worrying too much. I know I'm driving my loved 1's up the wall worried about this "toe". In the back of my mind I'm thinking if I should have just left this toe alone. I wanted this and I have to gather myself and finish getting through this and pray for the best. I have another appt this upcoming Wednesday and I will update you all!! Thanks for listening to this vent. Hopefully I'll be more confident and in better spirits next time.

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